Sharon Cuneta inaming napabayaan ang sarili

MANILA, Philippines- Sinabi ni Sharon Cuneta na napabayaan niya ang kanyang sarili matapos makaranas ng “midlife crisis.”

Naglabas ng open letter si Sharon sa kanyang Facebook page noong Lunes, Agosto 20. Dito’y ibinahagi niya sa kanyang mga tagahanga ang mga napagtanto niya sa nakalipas na mga buwan.

Una na dito ang kanyang “midlife crisis.”

“My reaction to it was awful; I became rebellious because I hated myself for the way I looked and the time I continued to waste by not focusing and working on bettering my own person,” anang megastar.

Aminado si Sharon na isa ito sa mga dahilan kaya nanatili siyang mataba sa mga nakalipas na taon.

“I feel that I have let you [fans] down. I let myself go, I allowed myself to get fat and stay fat. I became complacent... and I never lost faith in God, and in you, but I ignored the fact that I had lost faith in myself. It was I who let myself become affected by the fact that I had turned forty.

“I feel that I had lost that "hunger" to be on top of my industry, maybe because I finally had a peaceful home and a loving family and focused on my children so much,” she further adds. “And so I suffered the consequences of failing to treasure and take care of all that God had blessed me with with regard to my career. It IS my fault, my friends. I am only human.”

Alam niya na dahil sa mga pagkakamaling ito ay apektado ang pangalang pinangalagaan sa loob ng nakalipas na 36 taon.

Aminado man sa kanyang mga pagkakamali, hindi naman daw siya nagsisisi sa mga panahong naging totoo siya sa kanyang sarili.

Isa sa mga pagkakataon na iyon ay nang sumagot siya sa mga naninira sa kanya na aniya’y inudyok siyang magkamali sa pamamagitan ng pagpuntirya sa kanyang pamilya, lalo na sa kanyang mga anak.

Maaari raw hindi “Christian-like” ang naging pagsagot niya sa mga bashers pero depensa niya, “A human being who will do anything short of murder someone who is full of malice and such disrespect that I, and any member of my family, and truly any of YOU -- do not deserve.”

Gayunman, humingi siya ng tawad sa mga “upsetting words that I used when I could have ignored so much negativity” at ipinaliwanag na “I simply WAS AND STILL AM NOT USED to being treated in a mean way, being insulted to the depths of my soul when I have done nothing to deserve it except to defend myself and a loved one.”

Dagdag pa ni Sharon: “I cannot apologize for the person I am. I am transparent. I cry when I'm sad, I laugh uncontrollably when I'm happy, I am frank and say what I think when any part of my person or property is violated. I was very matiisin for many, many years, and lots of people took advantage of that. So very many.

“So I learned to stand up for myself. Twitter was one of the few places that provoked me to show that side of me, but make no mistake about it -- I am a fighter. I am not a doormat. And like every other human being, I deserve respect, especially because I know I am not a bad person.

“My mistake was I should've picked my battles like I always used to. I was shocked and unprepared, and so I was wrong to react the way I often did.”

Alam daw ni Sharon na maaaring gamitin ng kanyang bashers ang naturang open letter para sirain ang kanyang pangalan at imahe.

“I am baring my heart, even with the understanding that others who take pleasure in someone else's pain might just use this post again, against me. At this point, it is not my problem if they cannot distinguish between words spoken from the heart and those spoken for someone's 'image.’”

Nagpasalamat naman si Sharon sa mga tao at mga tagahanga na hindi bumitaw sa mga panahong napabayaan niya ang kanyang sarili.

Wala man daw siyang maipangako sa kanyang mga tagahanga, isang bagong misyon sa buhay naman daw ang kanyang natagpuan at iyon ay “to inspire and encourage, to show that in this crazy world, there are still a few of us you can count on to be real. To show that you fall every once in a while, but you get up. You must. It is our obligation to do so. I know it is my obligation to do so. Not just for me, but for all of you.”

“I don't say this lightly, but I love you. For loving me even if you don't know me as a normal human being and not the girl on tv and in movie reruns. I love you for knowing that I am not perfect, and loving me anyway. I love you because you give me a reason to go on doing what I love to do -- singing, acting, hosting... I love you because you make me feel needed and still worth something in this fickle world," pagtatapos niya ng kanyang liham.

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